Good Circumstances, Not So Good Choices

Monday's Weigh In
Weight: 190 pounds
This Week: -1.0 pounds
Total Difference: -2.5 pounds
Goal: 60 more pounds!

I gave up last Friday on keeping track of my Weight Watcher points. I know, I am supposed to keep track of everything, but I knew if I saw my points last week I would have been so depressed that it wouldn't have been any good for anyone. I don't need to beat myself up because I chose to hang out and have dinner with my cousins and I don't need to see that celebrating my mom's birthday yesterday sent my points over the edge. I know that it did, but I don't need to see it.

I don't want to be in a place where I can not celebrate birthdays or where I can not hang out with family and friends for fear that I'll gain a pound or two. I want to be free to make not-so-good choices in good circumstances.

That's not to say that I'm giving up on WW. No, I am back on track this morning...logging in my Fig Newtons and raisins and the salad I am having for lunch. I will do my best to make healthy choices this week and exercise more consistently. I am moving forward, facing forward...not moving forward while walking backwards.

But somehow, despite my food splurging, I did lose a pound! I think that that is absolutely fantastic...especially considering that 'my friend' is visiting. I am most definitely retaining water, I can see it in my hands. I need to get better at drinking my 100oz of water during the weekend. I do really good during the week and then somehow I 'forget' to drink anything on the weekends.

Someone explain to me how drinking more water helps you to not retain water. That to me is one of life's great mysteries.

Taking Time

This is my motivation for getting off of my duff and doing something! I had all the grand plans and good intentions of getting up early this morning and working out, but did I? Nope...slept in! Maybe I should plan to exercise at a different time. But when? I don't think that exercising at 10pm and then crawling into bed is such a good idea...and there is no way I can exercise when I get home (at least not at home). I have got to find a way to make this work.
21 days...21 days to create a habit! So I've got to find some consistency for the next 21 days.
I am setting a goal to work out (at least) Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays. Hopefully I can at least make 3 days a priority and work up from there. Eventually I'd like to do something six days per week, but I'm taking it slow. Otherwise I'll give myself a great excuse for not continuing.

Monday's Weigh In

Weight: 191 pounds

This Week: -1.5 pounds

Total Difference: -1.5 pounds

Goal: 60 more pounds!

I lost weight and I know that that is what is important, but I am so disappointed. Of course, last week was crazy with eating out and I only execised twice, so I can't expect much more then what I got.
I do need to stop stepping on the scale except Mondays. Watching my weight flux all week is enough to drive me crazy. One day I was at 189...then back up to 191. Then I beat myself up wondering what I did for it to go back up, what did I eat, etc...
So, the scale is going under the bathroom sink and I'll bring it out Monday mornings to weigh myself. Hopefully that'll eliminate some of my own self critique. (hopefully).

Countdown to a Healthier Me

10 foods I have to learn to eat in moderation

• Reese's peanut butter cups
• French fries
• Vanilla soft serve ice cream
• Sirloin steak
• White or yellow cake with vanilla frosting
• Cookies
• Spaghetti
• Bread
• Pizza
• Chocolate Frosty's

9 foods I want to add to my diet

• 1% milk
• Melons
• Fish, other then just tuna
• Spices!
• Spinach
• Berries, other then just strawberries
• Whole wheat bread
• Whole wheat pasta
• Brown Rice

8 reasons I have for wanting to lose weight

• I want to weigh less then my husband
• I want to be able to walk long distances without my thighs chafing
• I want to be able to stand for a long period of time without my ankles bruising
• I want to be able to wear 'cute' clothes
• I want to be able to get up and down off the floor without my knees hurting
• I want to be able to share clothes with my sister
• I want to try to avoid having diabetes, high cholesterol and other weight related illnesses
• I want to have more energy

7 excuses I have used in the past for not losing weight

• I have PCOS
• No one in my family is small
• It's too expensive to eat healthy
• I don't have the time to exercise
• Why bother? No one cares what I look like anyway
• I'm not that heavy
• It's impossible, I just can't do it!

6 motivational quotes to keep me going

• 'A man's doubts and fears are his worst enemies.' -William Wrigley Jr
• 'Other people and things can stop you temporarily. You're the only one who can do it permanently.' -Zig Ziglar
• 'Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.' -Walter Elliot
• 'Decide what you want, decide what you are willing to exchange for it. Establish your priorities and go to work.' -H.L. Hungt
• 'We never repent of having eaten too little.' -Thomas Jefferson
• 'Never, never, never quit!' -Winston Churchill

5 exercise goals I have for 2007

• I want to be able to complete the Susan Komen breast cancer walk in October
• I want to be able to walk at least 4 miles a day, 5 days a week
• I want to strengthen my core muscles
• I want to start weight training for tone and definition
• I want to learn to belly dance

4 things I want to be able to wear

• mini skirts
• calf high boots
• fitted tops
• lacy bras

3 lifestyle changes I need to make to be successful

• eat out less
• plan my meals
• make exercise a priority

2 reasons I overeat

• boredom
• being tired

1 person I am doing this for

• ME!!!

And in this corner...

wearing the plus size clothes and weighing in at 192.5 pounds....Melissa the Determined!

Determined to lose weight!

Determined to be healthier!

Determined to eat better!

Determined to be more active!

Determined to be happier with me!

Determined to stop making excuses!

Determined to start taking action!

Determined to hold myself accountable!

Determined to make better choices!

Determined to set goals!

Determined to meet goals!

Determined to stop being lazy!

Determined to be...

Melissa the Determined!

I joined Weight Watchers on-line today. I am determined to do something about my weight. I have lost 30 pounds since last March. (Honestly, I had lost even more, but I backslid and gained some of it back) I know I can I do it. I just have to stop being lazy. I have to stop being complacent. I have to start caring about me; about the way I look, the way I feel, about what I've become and about what I want to become!

So of course, each week you'll all get to read about my progress...or lack thereof, if the case may be. I am expecting, yes EXPECTING, you all to lbe in my corner. Leave me comments of encouragement, pick me up, don't let me throw in the towel, don't let me give up on this fight!

If you're going to be a Loser, you can't be a Quitter!